*mutter* Mortals.. or better.. friends... Whenever I wanted to write blogs no one was in the mood to tell me to write em and now Ziba and Ruta are bugging me to... Oh well here we go... Been working a bit still.. but thus managed to work most of my quota for this month. Had a weird feeling last night when I walked across 'my' airport.. I best could describe it with proudness... Hm, is it weird to be 'proud' of ones work? I guess not. Well anyway.. it's nice to work at a work place one likes.. though I should not forget that I also have my studies and should finish those at one point. Had a weird encounter today which reminded me of what I always say... I have FRIENDS and friends.. I talked to one of my oldest friends here in Germany and though he usually always is so happy happy and manages to cheer everyone up he was VERY downtrodden today.. and I couldn't get out of him what it was that made him so down.. which is a sign that he isn'T trusting me.. he tried to put on a mask when i asked him but I easily managed to look through it. Pondered whether simply to drive over to him but he has is girl as well and I should prolly stop pondering about the pain of the world and concentrate on my poor existance called life. Jenar my ooold ooold ooold mudfriend reappeared out of the dark abyss called RL which rocks. He is living near Turku nowadays so i might even see him on one of my trips.. by now I have a couple of people in Turku and one of my trips should go there.. but the next one will be helsinki first.. prolly flying at the 21st - Staying there till the end of that week and then going on to Oulu. Just heard that my friend seems to have some probs with his gf.. grin.. I HATE her so that would rock... grin.. okok sorry .. Im evil again. My usual depression seems to wither away atm or just fade into a grey state somehow. Well I still am in my NO alcohol week.. it ends tonight at midnight.. though the thought that I'm already drooling for a few beers is bad... maybe I should add a second week .. or maybe not... though I guess it would also be a good thing for my diet... I gained a few kilos -AGAIN- and I prolly don't have to mentioned that I am not too happy about that. Gnn okok .. brb.. putting a beer in the fridge... It's truly funny how different I am when at work.. I guess it's because I can hide behind my uniform...irl I sometimes don't feel like calling friends if I know they have stupid roomies who could answer the phone or unfriendly parents .... and at work.. well I make calls around the world sometimes and it's just cool... weird world I am living in for sure. Anyway ... Soooooo looking forward to be in finland again soon.. less than 2 weeks... BUUT I shouldn'T make plans... who knows what will be tomorrow... then again who knows what will happen in 1 day, in 1 hour, in 1 minute, in 1 second....