JuuuJuuuuu. Sleeping rhythm a bit just a tiiiny bit messed up once again. Been
working Night shift -day off - early shift- day off- and will have another
early shift tomorrow. Spent the last night watching CNN and hoping that Kerry
would win.. which isn't sure still... though I fear the worst. Just saw that
Juo is coming nearer to my position on the top-blog plaque.. sucks especially
as he always posts just one sentence entries or simply mobs killed or shit
like that. Well he soon will hit the 200 border and as he is a mortal that
will be it for him.. so I guess I have to just get my entries above 200 and
then battle with Dino again,). Well Joke aside. Planned to go to oulu end of
this month especially as I don't have to work much more for the rest of the
year and I had a Mökki possibility there... which was cancelled again. Guess
it's just my fault that I always get my spirit up looking forward to things
like that only to have em cancelled. Had another offer for a 2 day mökki trip
after christmas but I won't fly there just for 2 days. So I guess I just stay
at home and do what I am best in.. whine and whine. Besides whining that is of
course. Should code but somehow still am lacking the energy which seems to be
a common problem in my life atm. Am so proud of myself that I finally found
the energy to make a dentists apointment for next week.. have been planning to
do that for weeks and somehow never did. Did a lot of Ebay.ing the last weeks
again.. I should stop that.. but sometimes spending money seems to give me a
weird satisfaction. Missing Match and all the others who have been visiting me
and all the others I have been visiting. It sucks that I have friends abroad
well no lemme rephrase .. it sucks that I can't see my friends as often as I
wish as they are abroad. Atm I just would love to go to a mökki somewhere
faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar away
from society with a few great friends and a hot sauna and some booze. Maybe
some snow and I would prolly be happy. Maybe I s hould buy or build one
here... unfortunately there are prolly no places in Germany to be found which
are faaaaaaaar far away from society... Gnnnn I just can't stand my fellow men
sometimes and yet I feel lonely so often.. I need a switch to turn of my
brain.