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Wow a day off! And tomorrow as well. Wish I could decide what to do about my
Finland trip in 2 weeks now. HAve like 100s of offers for one night but I fear
I'm getting just too old for these one night here one night there thing. It
ends in me feeling like I need vacation from my vacation when I come home.
Dammit... now that I'm typing that there is a documentation about scandinavia
on TV and I'm already conjuring up the image that gave me so much power the
last few weeks namely the one of the full moon hanging deeply over the frozen
lake up north near Inari. Oh well can't help it .. seems I am hopelessly
romantic. As my poems showed I am in a weird situation atm. Not being sure
whether I'm lovesick or just dreaming of a long over affair I had. It remains
to be seen what life holds. I should try to see everything that happens to me
as a big adventure and not as one catastrophe leading to the next