And so it happens that I'm in an airplane again and again (wonder oh wonder) flying somewhere... in this case unfortunately in the direction of Germany which usually means I'm not the happiest man in the world but well. 4 nights have passed and it is time for me to get my butt and the attached parts of it to my working country Germany. Alas, I just finished watching Harry Potter III on this my fluffy Laptop and now decided on Peter Pan maybe thus helping my dream to finally be free... but I'm rambling again. This Blog is dedicated to my 'mud Godchild' Jaro and his gorgeous Dad Grediah. I got my first piece of mail in my finnish apartment from Grediah's fasmily and it really really made my day. In any case after spending some hours in my favorite bar U.Kaleva again last night (No, I didn't have the balls yet to look into my wallet how much I spent) it -again- showerd that I belong to Finland .. it is so weird and I seriously cannot explain it... we will see what my life brings... it is a big adventure I guess and though my situation in life pains me ever so often, it still is my life after all. Only future will tell whether even more time of it will be spent in Finland ... though I already DO know the answer.... and Suomi it will be... question is only when and how. But those are smaller details.. it seems as if I have to chose between living in a diamond cave in Germany where everything can cut me though its shiny and rich or a meadow in suomi where not everything is so shiny but then again sun shines into it. Oh well enough blabbering.... sorry for u guys who have to listen to this:). Anyway long story short.... Finland will be my future.**