Humankind is a funny funny thing. Or so it seems. As I mentioned I have seen
this Sunrise Avenue Gig last night in Tavastia. To be honest I never heard of
the band before and just went there as we got the free tickets because one of
my closest friends has been friends with their producer and keyboarder since
they have been 7. But anyway. So I went there, felt a bit old as there were
like 300 13 year old girls (yeah Tavastia needs u to be 18 but still I swear
they looked like 13) and didn't expect too much. The gig was rather nice
though (might have seemed that was as friends continuously bought me new
beers) and we chatted a bit with the keyboarder later on. So today I do some
research and find out that the singer is half german (No wonder all the girls
drool for him) and that they are indeed rather popular (Have been in the
German charts for a long while). Now that's the point where human nature kicks
in. Around 20000 years ago when I was still young, bold and beautiful, I
wanted to become an actor. It was my best subject in school and I even studied
it in university for some time at some point in my life. The dream died at
some point though and now I'm too old for anything like it but still I can't
help but feeling some mix of jealousy and envy and admiration for those who
actually make it into the limelight. Of course they prolly won't stay there
forever etc etc but still whenever I get in touch with someone 'famous'
through some pesonal level as in last night the friend of my friend. Like
always when it comes to self analyzing it helps to get the insight WHY we tick
this or that way but then again it doesn't really change THAT we do it. Well
well well current mood: Jealous of others - I guess.