Hmmmmmmyes And another almost useless day. Payed the airport a visit, did some stuff there, found a possibility for an internship there that sounds too good to be true and checked some flights to get my sorry ass to Helsinki and further to Oulu. Heard that Malicat will not come to Hesinki this time... No comments. I hope the kamikaze+ ss members will come anyway even though it's just me coming as special guest. Talked to jenar who finally logged on again today. Did some more general pondering along the usual "who am I, where am i from, where do I want to go" line. Actually ended in one of these moments which seem to be perfect annd though it only lasted for the blink of an eye it was rather cool and filled my energy tanks enormously again. At least I know, that happiness os still out there... somewhere. Did some exploring the last days and found some rooms every day for some twiddle exp. Hrmpf I prolly should work on my self consciousness. Actually looking forward to the Finland visit. Might turn out to be my longest one ever so far in case I really manage to stay there 2 full weeks though that would mean getting all my Xmas presents there. Hm didn't I mention that before in another blog?! Whatever. It's my Dad's Bday tomorrow.. I PRAY that clumsyy bought the presents. It's a sad habit that my dad always gets the annual CD from Clumsyy and me but he likes it so why change it. :) Downside of the Bday will be a visit to a restaurant with relatives... Let's hope no one will start reciting stupid poems in dialect or something.