Maybe watching all these episodes of Emergency Room id not such a good idea after all... am feeling awfully depressed from all this sickness and dying talk. Maybe it's also because I did not get mucho sleep last night and somehow didn't go for a nap during the day. Early shifts suck ass but it leaves me more time of the day than a late shift would.... well one more early shift and then a block of some free days. Work was rather soft today, just withdraw into a side room, listened to music with my MP3 player and read a bit. Had some very clear moments the last days in which I found out about life, universe, my role in it etc. etc. next step should be to assess these conclusions and take measures I guess. Had some really good talks with Usvasumutin .. the man with the name no one who is not a finn can pronounce.... was really cool :). Today my clear moments however seem to be gone again... feeling just BLAH. Not even coding worked .. did one little special I wanted to implement but it didn't work.