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Posted: 15 Mar 2004 20:46 [ permalink ]
Grrr Why do I get my spirits up all the time only to be slapped in the face by
life itself again. Maybe thats what being an adult means, but it surely isn't
my goal for life. It just So isn't. Though only a very small thing, my
vacation plans for next week are once again ruined... within 3 days all my
plans I developed are gone .. I got my hopes up up up again higher and higher
only to fall deep deeper and deeper. So no USA and no Finland the way it looks
like at the moment. Feeling empty and quite sure that it is a sign of my ever
ongoing sopa opera life. I dunno why I even make plans if they are bound to
fail anyway. I'm just so feeling empty and already curse myself to post this
shit on the net... It just is so fucking unfair that whenever I finally think
I got my moods up again something happens to kick me into the face and make me
fall even deeper. Maybe i'll delete this entry again later, maybe Ill add even
more shitty stuff... It's a sad fact that I will feel even more down in a few
hours cause now it is decided that I will drink till I drop tonight. I don't
get laid, my friends are all in finland and even when I wanna see them I fail
cause I don't have a place there and even if I see them I am the eternal
visitor and not the real guy. Maybe I never felt so empty in my head
before.... good thing is that Im not sad but just empty and again I am bathing
in my pain :P . Instead of getting my ass up and do something I am whining
whining whining and more whining how sucky my life is and hoping for someone
to pity me. I just somehow seem to lose my goal in situations like this.