Best RL friend today cancelled our plans of moving together.. so I am in heavy
Krapula and in depression again. I guess I have this idealized idea about
friendship or maybe just never found a real friend. Whatever. Played the happy
happy joy joy kid and nephew today, and participated in happy happy joy joy
easter coffee drinking and cake eating. My mother actually really hid some
chocolate eggs for me around the apartment which was kinda sweet. Rest of day
I spent in bed mudding or chatting... now this telephone call from my friend.
Blah. Wish I could say more but shrug. Easter passed and neither am I feeling
spiritually enlightened nor physically relaxed.. and I DID have 3 days off
work now. Late shift tomorrow and then 2 night shifts... as if it would matter
somehow or to someone.