And another day where I feel cast out of paradise. Someone rather important to me has been hm lets say disappointing (and thats to put it rather mildly) me over and over again and it has reached a certain climax atm. Some friends of mine tell me I seemingly like to get myself in situations where I am threatened to be hurt (In the metaphorical sense) and maybe I have to learn things the hard way all the time... but at some point it sucks to be constantly laughed and kicked in the face. I guess I should develop a thicker skin to stand these episodes of my life better. Or maybe I should just become totally bitter and stop trusting anyone... sigh but its not gonna happen that way so I will just be the one I am and hopefully learn something at one point.