...
Okay. This day simply sucked.
...
First, I went to 'serve' my prison sentence at Rilynttar for assaulting a city
guard earlier. Nothing wrong with that, the sentence was 1 rl hour. In the
prison you must put all your items into a containment box for holding, before
entering the cell.
I did as told and left the prison as a free mud-character... but forgot one
tiny little thing after getting my items from the holding box.
'keep' and especially 'keep eq' is a wonderful command, which prevents you
from accidentally doing stupid things. Unfortunately I didn't remember to keep
my eq after taking them back.
...
So, I ended up selling my 2 staffs - Staff of Elements and sizzling staff - to
a shop, which paid a whopping 22k gold for my poor staffs, but demanded 600k +
129k respectively to sell them back. Of course, as a poor newbie I don't have
that kind of sum.
...
It was at that moment, on a storm of petty anger and self-hate, I decided to
'suicide' my character. I was very pissed off and I still am, but after
contemplating and whining and sobbing I came partially to my senses (??) and
canceled the suicide. A nice fellow loaned me 107k and I was able to buy the
sizzling staff back.

I feel miserable about my stupid behaviour over crappy eq and lame angst. Plus
of course I feel bad about losing the Staff of Elements, but nothing can be
done for that.

Sorry.