Fuck the world, for all it's worth, every inch of planet earth! Anselmo knew
what he was talking about. I have plenty to say, really, you just would not
want to hear it so I keep my ugly mouth shut! Hah! I dream of tearing my
stomach open, I wish I'd dream of cutting my balls, or cutting my fingers...
GOD SPEED MY BLACK EMPEROR! This music makes me feel so funny, so eerie, so
beautiful... Oh dear alcohol, I missed you so much. Hey my friends, hey my
comrades, whooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

getting drunk is like making love to a woman
I start with few beers as a foreplay, I have a bottle of wine to make her wet
I may have something for me then, maybe a sip of vodka
I take few good drills, hard drills, long drills with liquoir of choice today
a plum booze, shitty taste but it goes for the ride I'll ease off
near the final
let the final two beers be my ejaculate
when the morning cames and I have this feeling
"everything is okay, allright"
as I pass out. I feel fine.

BLAAAT. Going to Helsinki tomorrow. Really fucks me up I must say, but it
feels kind of nice to meet my wife. I just hate to travell, it reaaally fucks
me up. But I'm sure it will be nice, I'm actually waiting to get to that
chinese restaurant that waits when I get there. We did survive our little
crisis. Our whole life is a one big crisis. But hey, when you get onboard, you
better stay on board. On the sea of relatioships, I cannot swim. That is what
I know. Had an good conversation with someone who knows who he is. Made me
think. I not much of a think tank, not as much as I wanted to be, but at least
I'm quite sure that the conversation did some good to me. I just wish that I
could give people more than just random ramblings, but maybe that is why I
choose to be silent so often.  And that is probably for the best I want to be
merry, I'm smiling. Look I'm smiling. Look my love, I really am smiling.

Phew. Went to soccer practise, played soccer and now feeling sweaty. Really
sweaty. Sweat feels kind of nice. Somehow I'm not feeling so bad about my
writing anymore. Too long has gone from my last poem, I know that much, but I
feel that another one is just around the corner. Can't wait to get drunk this
weekend, maybe it'll come to me...

Hmh, writing. I'm obviously not angry enough nowadays. "Poems are my bastard
children". I should hate them more, I probably should hate everything more.
It's all just a gray mass, which again reminds me of mushrooms, and I wonder
should I finally get something done in that region of my life. Alcohol may not
be enough.

This Femko fellow seems interesting. And nice. That gives me a bit more hope, 
what comes to Bat in general.

hmh
Had a bit of break from the mud. Was a good break probably, cause it seems
that I started enjoying this more now than ever. Let's see how long it lasts.
Probably not long though, people still won't change I believe...
hmh.  blahblah

1. Always remember to press all the freaking buttons you can find in the mud.

2. Castration is always an option

Right.

I have lived about four or five days alone now. I really cannot tell. Feels
very, very awkward. I'm pretty fucking scared most of the time. I'm so certain
that someone else is living here also, altought my beloved has been on her
trip for a while. Just pisses me off a bit. I mean, hell, I'm over twenty, I
just should manage, but my mind says otherwise. Cannot wait to fall to sleep.
Nowadays loneliness just isn't for me I guess. Probably not gonna freak out
though. Bloody Merry Christmas.

Eww eww eww... In school right now. Aye, I'm a polytechic bastard, a
tradenomic wanker and pretty lameass person in general. I really have this
storng urge to make kilju. Hey please, if someone knows what 'kilju' is in
english, please tell me so I can use that word from now on. Because I think
that I'm going to use that word a lot in the not so far future.

aw. So long has passed since I last decided to msturbate mentally in here.
There's no reason to do it now, but still, why not. Drank a bottle of wine
with a friend today. That was nice, altough it hardly had any effect. I'm a
bit sleepy, and a bit irritated about the fact that there's no more alcohol
for me today, but hell. That's life. Get used to it, you sorry ass loser.

aye, I'm so very drunk sooooo very fuckimng drunk and messed up my life. well
I', a wreck. a bit. Ireally am. Hey wanna contact human wreck? contact fucking
me?

Uuuuh, turskis. Been drinking beer for a few moments now. No effect yet I'm
afraid. Bloody hell, I should be drunk by now. It's a minute past four PM.
Really, I feel quite bad, I meant tired and all. Hope this will be the best
känni ever. Though I doubt that, this is going to be just another evening of
drunkeness. Well, that's not bad either.

So, in the mudding life this are improving. I finished my chest, it's really
nice. I started making another. Maybe I won't reinc after all. Maybe. gee, I
really should be back finishing that beer. beer kalaja kalju hilipati hippan
ja heviä koneeseen. I'll describe my state of drunkeness later.

Oh my. I'm drunk. I'm a bit now, and gonna be a jolly bloddy more later. This
is very fun you know. I don't mean mudding but drinking. My my my, this is
good. Hmph, I just making an ass out of my self here. I try to be funny
though, I mean that I'm not a mean person in any way. Hope you understand. I'm
just bloody jester you know. Sigh, hey if you're reading this, drop me a mail?
Or kick my ass? Anyway you like it. I wouldn't be so bloody bored all the
time. Now drinking: Tassu-viina

What intence weekend of mudding this has been! Needless to say, that I should
have studied to my examination tomorrw, but blaah. It will go as it'll go.
Hmm.. Met a nice person today. She was really kind to me, and had a bit of
time talk about mudding too. That was nice, it would be really nice to have
more experiences like that here.  Maybe, maybe, at least I now am sure that
there's more than just hack & slash here. Still doing that bloody chest by the
way. Ain't easy I tell you. Thought about reinc again, but no. Not my cup of
tea. Really. Hmm. Some one tried to kill me again, which was not nice.
Suddenly these two guys just came to room and started attacking me. That could
have been a mistake, since there was that monster too. Well, escaped though.
In rl, I think I am becoming an alcoholic. I just have to fight to the end of
next week!

-edit- oh well, that attack could have been a shapeshifter. I wonder, can they
come in pairs?

Burgle... Just watched that bloody Harakka show at telly... What a bunch of
bs. Sad, because mr. Harakka is usually very wise and respectable person. Sad,
really sad. The thing is that those humorous parts just piss me
offffffffffff.... completely. Blah.

Aye, Decided to start a blog here. Well, not sure what real blog should be
like, but what the hell. Nobody reads these anyway :) Trying to do some
merchanting, but seems a bit hard. Damn it! I'm not going to reinc. I have
talked with few people about this reinc thingie, and it seems that it is very
hard to start merchanting from the bottom. Well, I'm going to try anyway. I
have sold about 100kg of cedar it seems. Wow. I really feel a bit lonely here.
BUT yesterday I met this wonderful bloke who had this wonderful bear. Oh boy,
it really was something. He was nice bloke, really nice! I still have to ask
around for some basic information, but lately no one has banished me. That's
good I think. But yesterday was also a bit sad. This one bloke banished me to
the middle of the sea. I just wasn't quick enough to use portal. Made me feel
a bit blue

In rl... Well, Haven't been much of a poet lately. Did some shit when was
drunk last weekend, but didn't satisfy. Still, trying trying and trying. Hope
I haven't lost my inspiration completely. Hey, now I know what's the deal! I
promised to my girlfriend that I'm going to bee sober for next few weeks.
Well, that promise was made week a go, so just week left anymore. Then I'll be
back writing. Sure...