Well well well... great.. my glorious idea not to drink did just hold like
what? 1 night? Fuck I AM getting worried a bit about myself... I had one week
home alone and I was like almost drinking every fucking evening alone in front
of my PC.... well I now made the deal and oath with a friend of mine not to
drink any alcohol till next sunday. And I surely plan to hold that oath...
Well I will be working mostly anyway I guess. My shift block is beginning
tomorrow with 2 early early shifts... starting at 5 am .. meaning I'll have to
get up at 4 am... but the positive aspect is that I will be off work at 12.30
(13.30 EET) so I can sleep a bit or whatever. Well i shouldn't whine but get
my ass into gear. I DO like my job after all and it is one of the only things
which keeps me here instead of considering to move to finland. Blah, better
not think about that topic now.. it tends to get me down. It's just that I
have had 2 offers to get an apartment in Helsinki and of course the idea was
fucking tempting.. sigh. Oh well you guys out there have to thank Rutaliator
that I actually write something again.. seems as if he is the only one left to
read my shit here... maybe I should stop or maybe I should go into a monastery
for a week or two with the desperate hope to find myself or something. It's
hard to really know who I am somehow. Ooooh well. At least the last week
allowed me to talk a lot to old friends and make some more friendships. Hehe I
even climbed to place 7 on the plaque and am currently at 8. Damned I really
should work on my ego.. why do I always feel so lonely if I am on one of the
top positions concerning friends... I guess human brain is just wacko. Daily
thanks of my blogging goes to Adgii. I had a hell lot of great talks with him.
Parents came back today and we ordered Pizza mmmmh! Got some extra garlic with
the hope that my passengers don't come too near to me the next days,). Also
did some coding again for my newest project. Still waiting for votk to get in
the game.. hope this won't turn into a nevere nding story. In addition to the
stress I made me my fingers look like shit again.. regular readers will know
that thats a SURE sign of stress... Oh well.. Finland prolly will have me back
around the 22cnd of this month.. a few days in Helsinki and then prolly to
Oulu. We will see... I have seen so many of my plans fail so it's best not to
plan too hard I guess. I am happy though that Mizo is back. I truly missed him
and it was so fucking cool to visit him in Japan. Surely was one of my coolest
trips ever. Sigh maybe I should be happy about my life :(.