Wellwellwell... this is certainly not exactly working the way I planned.
Kepucon is coming up and I'm in a plane .. that much is right. What's wrong is
that I had to get up at 5 AM, had less than 5h sleep and will continue to
Rovaniemi instead of Oulu... it's all not exactly helping to my already
agitated state of mind. It's funny that a person who travels once a month is
nervous about travelling.. especially if that person is working for an
airline. But well the brain is a funny weird lil thing, isn't it.. Hmpf the
guy next to me just asked me what I'm watching .. I mean hello how rude can
you be.. if I peak onto someones screen, I don't make comments about it do I?
Oh well... were was I .. oh yes... whining about my day :P. I got the seat at
the emergency exit which means I got space for my legs but its cold.. first
time in centuries I asked for a blanket on a short flight. I'll have two hours
in Helsinki, then flying to Rovaniemi where I'll have another couple of hours
till Mace will pick me up and go to Oulu which will be another 3hour ride or
so. I somehow start doubting this all was a great idea but well I'm sure I'll
think differently about it once the con is over and I can sleep some. Maybe I
should take the chance and sleep a bit in the plane now though I'm usually to
stressed to do so. Blah.-----3h later whee I'm in the plane to Rovaniemi.
Paula a friend of mine called though and informed me that she can't make it to
the airport so I'll have to get my butt to downtown Rovaniemi... I better hide
my matches *GRIN*. For the first time in my life I did what I see many
passengers doing every day at my airport.. I found 4 empty seats and slept for
a bit which at least got my mood up a bit. Actually I gotta admit the seats in
Finnair are almost better than mine... Whee I just bought a beer in the
airplane :) First time ever I had to pay for it which is sorta funny...
glorious they only have Lapin Kulta here.. A co worker of mine recently was
surprised to hear that the stuff is lovingly called Reindeer Piss in 
Funland... as her father calls himself a true beer fan and was so proud he had
tried Lapin Kulta. Well Kippis dera Blogreaders... this beer is for Lauri...
fuck I still miss u Enochian.:(. I somehow wonder how funny it is that the
human brain seems to be able to endure so much pain. People survive death
camps, people survive crashes, accidents, deaths of their beloved and still go
on. Which in return makes me wonder why I have so much problems with coping
what stupid situations come up in my life but then again comparing lifes is
never working anyway... u'll always find someone who leads a better or a worse
life. I just sometimes wonder whether I would lead my liffe differently if I
could go back in time and change things... but then again thoughts like that
are in vain anyway aren't they. Maybe I should - for once - just shut up and
try to enjoy my life instead of suffer and whine and whine and suffer though
then again these character traits are belonging to me, aren't they.. would I
still be me if I would behave differently? Oh well... Con tonight. Friends,
Sauna and maybe a couple of beers. I don't think I'll drink too much this con
but well one never knows.. generally I'm just getting too old for these booze
excesses... I dunno whether Lauri's dead is influencing me or the fact that I
have seen some alcoholics around ... in any case I think I should cut back my
alcohol consumption. I guess it's a very tempting idea that alcohol usage is
making people feel better, taking their problems away..., but unfortunately
it's creating more problems than it takes away. Especially for people working
in shifts like me it is tempting to get a beer or two or three to get tired to
sleep to be able to be fit for work in the morning... or to take a beer or two
or three to reduce stress after a shitty day... but now approaching
Rovaniemi... Femko out.