Hmm. No one complained yet, so I guess no one is reading this shit here
anymore anyway. But who cares... time for a new blog block. Haha Im soo funny
(blog block got it ? HaaaaHaaa). Im yet back from another very hm eventful
Helsinki visit. Was my shortest one in a long while. But then again why should
I always stay for a week. Very nice visit indeed it was. HAd mucho fun. Sigh
it nowadays seems to me that I'm coming home whenever I end in Finland and
that I'm going somewhere else when Im back home. Did I mention that my life is
a silly, stupid soap opera sometimes? At least that's how I feel ever so
often. Well the only thing I learned from an otherwise very negative meeting
with a certain Helsinki Mudder is that everything is experience.. whatever
happens it's experience... It seems as if I'm on the verge of slipping back
into one of the darker / sarcastic stages of my life... well we will see. I
sometimes crave to be someone else but I figure it wouldn't be ME and whatever
I am atm is just me cause of all the external factors influencing my life. But
blah, why am i putting all that shit on my blog anyway. GRIN in shrink mode I
would say it is a desperate cry for help ,). Spent some time with my rl
friends here in germany the last days... it's my sad duty to inform u that I
fear that my rl friends suck. It's strange ... they have been my friends for
so many years but somehow either I have evolved or they have devolved (hm is
that a word? whatever) well anyway atm I mainly am home.. fell to a new
addiction called DVD.. Always am auctioning for em on Ebay. Didn't exp in days
now.Either I don'T feel like mudding or if i do, most of my friends are in
party or are Tarms themselves. Sadly heard that one planned trip I had in mind
within the next few weeks had to be cancelled. Oh well. It sucks.. usually mud
could cheer me up.. but nowadays even that sucks. Damned Winterdepression.
Fuck I want back to Finland. Blah should stop Blogging...... at least for
today.