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Library: The Plague of Lighthouse Keepers


Author: Darshan
Date:Feb 27 1998

Still waiting for my saviour
Storms tear me limb from limb
My fingers feel like seaweed
I'm so far out I'm too far in.

I am a lonely man
My solitude is true
My eyes are borne stark witness
And now my nights are numbered too

  I've seen the smiles on dead hands;
  The stars shine
  But they're not for me.

I prophesy disaster
And then I count the cost
I shine but shining, dying
I know that I am almost lost

  I've been a witness and the seal of death
  Lingers in the molten wax
  That is my head

  To see the skeletons of sailing ships fall sinking low
  You may get to wonder if the point of all these ancient fears
  Is solemnly directed straight at you.

No time now for competition
A time - for that's long past
The walls are thin as tissue
And if I talk I'll crack..

  So I'll only think on how it might've been
  Locked in silent monologue
  In silent screams...


'UNREAL, UNREAL!' ghost helmsmen scream falling through the sky;
Not breaking through my seagull shrieks - no breaks until I die
Spectres scratch on window slits
Hollowed faces and mindless grins
Their sole intent of destroying what they've lost.

I crawl the wall till steepness ends in the vertical fall;
My pail has sailed into the sea - no joking hopes of dawn
White bone shine in the iron jaw mask
Lost mastheads pierce the freezing dark
And parallel my isolated Tower
No paraffin for the flame..
No harbour left to gain..


Would you catch the final words of mine?
Would you catch my words?
I know that there's no time
I know that there's no rime
  I don't want to wait
  I am so afraid
  Why can't I let me
  Just be myself
  -I am completely alone.
  I don't want to wait
  I am so afraid
  Why can't I let me free
  -I die very slowly alone.


The maelstrom of my memory
Is a vampire and it feeds on me
Now staggering madly over the brink I fall.

Lighthouses might house the key
But can I reach the door?

I want to walk on the sea
So that I may better find ashore
But how can I ever keep my feet dry?
I scan the horizon;
I must keep my eyes on
All parts of me..

Looking back on the years
It seems that I have lost my way
Like a dog in the night I've run to a manger
Now I am the stranger I stay in..

All of the grief I have seen
Leaves me chasing solitary peace
But I hold experience in my head;
I'm too close to the light;
I don't think I see right
For I blind me..


Where is the god that guides my hand?
How can hands of others reach me?
How will I find a way to grow?
Who is going to teach me?
I am you
You are we
We can't see
Any way out of here..
Chance has lost my Guinevere..
The sea will drag me deep
One more haggard drowned man!