Due to manifold requests (Mazzon, Mazzon and Mazzon) I herewith open up my
Blogging tradition again...  And wonder oh wonder it's another nightshift I'm
spending right now at my favorite airport. (Darned.. another lie Helsinki is
my favorite one and I'm definitely not there at the moment.) Anyway. I sorta
stopped counting though  I should be able to reconstruct the number of my
visits to my favorite home away from home,  Helsinki. I spent New Years eve at
my favorite Mudding commune in Leppävaara (sheesh I hope I wrote that the
right way..)  and had another very very cool trip to the old old Mökki, far m,
whatever of Mizo's together with him, near Savonlinna.  Though the trip ended
with a LOT of alcohol in Helsinki and me being tossed out of a bar (YEAH I'm a
man now!),  it surely was a trip to remember. I myself am sorta mediocre
feeling atm... my past seems to take over again  and I'm battling some yuckie
thoughts which I though I successfully hid in some drawer somewhere...  well I
guess I gotta deal witzh some issues some point, though I'd prefer if it
wouldn't be right now...  I'm still looking for an affordable flat in Helsinki
 together with Ziba..so in case u have a heart for a Femko,  join the search.
Studies are still nil atm.. which prolly is one of the reason of my rather
stressed mental state. Wonder oh wonder why I can't get my ass into gear to
really start doing something... if I would concentrate on it I would be able
to graduate within less than a year... buit no oh no, damned Femko brain
decides differently. Blah.  Got a few days off at the end of the month so
maybe I'll go to Helsinki again, at least to pay U. Kaleva a visit and to  hug
some of my friends. I AM missing the city of eternal joy and sadness more than
a bit.. it really is my home away  from home and after more than 25 visits I
am likely to believe that I did indeed find my country in Finland. At least my
stages of general happiness seem to be longer there than here, which is a true
sign that somethign has to be changed.  Exactly a year ago I have been in the
US .. bittersweet memories which also try to creep into my already a bit
'shadowy' soul... I need some light again to drive it away :). shadowy soul
... nice word combo :)