In spite of a little good news this week, I'm kindof blue today.  The good
news is that I'm down 3 pounds from last week.  Weighed in at 171 last
evening, so I worried for nothing about plateauing.  The other good news is
the oppressive heat in the mid90's we had the past week is now gone.  It is a
more seasonal 86 out this evening.

Unfortunately, I've been focusing on the downside.  The past few weeks I've
been meeting a gal once per week to watch our mutual friend play in a
recreational soccer league.  Last night, she brings along a male friend of
hers along with that I never met before who was also a mutual friend of
theirs.  So, I assigned him as a 'threat', and I'm sure that jaded me towards
him.  Then after some conversation 3-way, and I get interruped by this guy
several times, I decide to let my introvert ways kick in and sit out of the
conversations.  At half time, the gal decides she needs to take off, leaving
both of us guys there for the rest of the game.  Nice.  So, I'm kindof irked
at her at the moment.  Now the "blue" part of my mood is that feeling of
desperation kicking in again. 

I was chatting with a coworker the other day, and before she had gotten
married, she could empathize with I was feeling.  Basically, the feeling that
I'm never going to meet someone and get married.  I can feel it eroding my
self-confidence, not that I had that much to start with.  So, as of now, I
don't have any promising prospects on the horizon, and the one I thought I
had, well, appears I was wrong.  Which is worse, a bad prospect or no prospect
at all?  Too bad the only advice my coworker had is "it happens when you least
expect it".  Well, how much less can I get when I believe that it will never
happen.  *sigh*  Like I said, a bit blue.  Oh well, at least I'm not too
emotional about it.  I'm getting pretty numb to this sort of heart ache that
it doesn't bother me more than a day or 2 any more.  Tonight's blog entry
brought to you by "Love Removal Machine" The Cult.