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Posted: 26 Sep 2003 00:29 [ permalink ]
As much as I complain and threaten, I think I've convinced all that I don't
want to play Bat.  Deep down inside, I really want to yet.  I want to get on
and make megs of xp, conquer that big eq mob and get that lucky dice roll, and
increment those little counters that make the character just a hair better.  I
want to spend those 16 hours straight again doing nothing but reacting to the
text scrolling by.  But some time ago I had to make the decision, do I make a
life for  myself and be a corporate consuming slave or do I drift and spend my
time in a minial job barely supporting myself to get back to gaming when my
shift is over.  I have a pair of friends, whose entire lives are spent between
working and gaming and I envy their freedom.  I wonder, have I made the right
decision?  How much better have I made the universe by working and living the
"American way"?  Would the universe had been any worse off if I had slacked
off instead?  Who knows, maybe I can find out after I'm dead.  Or maybe that
angel from "A Wonderful Life" can someday show me if I had done God's will. 
Who knows, maybe someday I'll have my life and Bat too.  Until then, I'll make
my little plans, scrape a few K of cash and xp when I can, and lament and envy
those who can spend the time when I cannot.  

I've finally managed to get something slopped down for my end of the year
review.  I still am procrastinating from writing work reviews for 3 of my
coworkers.  Otherwise, it has been a slow day with all of the projects winding
down or already closed out till next week to start up again with new fiscal
monies.  I'm glad I decided to impulse buy a CD of Pat Benatar's greatest hits
last night while shopping for medicines and supplies for the upcoming cold
season.  I love her energy and emotion coming through the music.  Shoutout to
Brillo.