Darkness enhances fear.  When I wake up in the middle of the night feeling
alone, abandoned and empty I want to look around and see the things that
comfort me.  I want to see the love of my life lying next to me.  I want to
see the traced hands of my children hanging on the wall.  I want to see the
home that has been made.  I open my eyes and all I see is darkness.  I want to
be held, but I dare not wake anyone.  I want somebody to say that they love
me, but all I hear is indifferent rythmic breathing.  It's the middle of the
night, and I am so utterly alone.  By waking nobody I condemn myself to the
lonliness, and so I cry myself to sleep.