I went to church today at 6 PM and we had the ehtoollinen, where the priest
gave öylätti and wine. He blessed me and said that Jesus's blood is there,
bled for me. It was a shamanistic, cannibalistic practice. There is no
cannibalism in Judaism, it's a purely Christian religious ceremony, a ritual.
Christianity is a religion of various Pagan, shamanistic and Indo-European
rituals like Yule and Summer Solstice, Midsummer (Midsumar). That Jesus thing
made me feel a bit empty inside so I went and bought a pack of cigarettes, but
I had smoked cigarettes in the morning too, before church. And... I bought a
can of beer, Koff III and drank it. And I drank coffee too. I feel quite
dopaminergic now, but a bit disappointed and depressed. Usually the Christians
get drunk and drown in a lake, after beating up their wives which happens
after a bottle of vodka. The muslims on the other hand smoke cigarettes and
get stoned and touch underage girls. What a bunch of pagans we are. The
schlomo are funny too, but they don't wander the streets of Salo. But I am
compassionate, I am a compassionate conservative. I like Jesus, I like my
church and I like psychoactive substances, if I don't get drugged too much by
it. I don't like to get "high", which happens usually when I drink coffee too
much or when I smoke cigarettes quick after a long cessation. I get high on
alcohol too, but only rarely. I am not a sociopath, so I don't get drunk every
weekend. I don't have any drinking buddies. And I don't have any drug buddies
either. But... I do have friends. But still. Sometimes, deep down inside I
think, perhaps I should have tried to get a big group of girl groupies as a
youngster. Perhaps I should have been a hippie, but I was just a guy. I like
Jimi Hendrix, he is heavy rock. I don't enjoy schlomo religions much, but
Jesus is a good guy. I hear about him in church and read about him in the
Bible. Öylätti is Jesus's flesh. It is just a cookie with no taste, has a
picture of Jesus crucified on it, the text reads "INRI", "Iesu Nasareti Rex I
oudoreum". I remember details well. Today I have stimulated: my religious
side, my side that needs to chat with people, my nicotine reseptors, my
dopamine reseptors. Perhaps I should drink huge loads of beer next weekend,
but tomorrow is Monday already, and I need to go to back to the grind, the
routines. Hmmm... I could drop out and hang out in bars, smoking cigarettes at
home, but they would try to contact me by phone and ask me what's the problem,
why didn't you go to rehabilitation home. I could drop out of everything and
just smoke cigarettes and drink beer. I could read the Bible, smoke
cigarettes, drink beer and watch telly. Oi. Well. Some things I need to skip:
beer, cigarettes. Some things I can do: watch TV, read Bible. I could watch
Taivas TV7 (Heaven TV7), but it has lots of Baptists in it. I know some
Baptists personally, but I didn't meet them because of religion, but because
of personal reasons. Well... I could just watch TV and smoke cigarettes.
Dopamine is good.