I shopped for Christmas presents for a bunch of younger cousins who I will be
seeing over Christmas. It's always fun shopping for little kids. I like
spoiling my young cousins.

Then I went for dinner and conversation/football at friends. I felt completely
emotionally detached. I was bored but I didn't want to look like an ass and
just leave. I could hardly think of anything to say for most of the evening I
only managed a couple of witty quips and some colossal misunderstandings, like
how a 5'3" woman couldn't fit into military aircraft she had been trained to
fly, turns out she was deemed too small after 2 years of training, not too
big. 

I sometimes feel like I have nothing in common anymore with my friends. They
talk about tv shows I don't watch (I have no cable/satellite tv) and they
whine about disfunctional families and make me squeamish with horror medical
stories. My family isn't perfect, but I get tired of listening to the same
old. As I sat at the table I could almost see the conversation whirling around
me, but never getting too close and I just didn't care. The chair was
uncomfortable and I day dreamed of all the things I would have preferred
doing. I must be a horrible friend.