Great somehow I just found myself in the situation where I couldnt even think
of yet another formulation for 'Am fucking down'.. so I guess I won't say it
at all. Had a great Eurovision Song Contest party last night and paid for it
with a major hangoveronly to be kicked into the face virtually again by
somehow I care for very much. There seems to be a pattern in it.. I always am
the one who suffers and never the one who causes suffering. Though it is nice
not to cause suffering it is certainly not nice to suffer. Somehow I always
end being rather helpless in such situations.. funnily enough I sure always
find solutions in job and a supporting word for others but when it comes to
myself I am a helpless victim of my very own emotions. Well they Do say that
admitting ones problems is the first step to solve them... still waiting for
the solving part though. Got early shift tomorrow... great going.. I got up at
2pm today and will have to get up at 4.30 am tomorrow morning... how I hate
shifts sometimes... In addition to that still didnt find any solution to my
lil 'what to do between kuopiocon and juhannus' problem but there is still a
month to go and I'll be in Helsinki once before that will come to happen.
Flying prolly Friday and staying for a week. Looking forward to the trip like
I'm always. Still.... should get my life under control to get away from this
terrible soap opera I'm living in.