Hello blog. Yesterday I went to see doctor because of the shoulder problems  I
have been whining for a while. In fact the shoulder have been hurting for
months but not as bad as lately. Well the judgement was - Cortison injection,
pain killers and need to learn to sleep in a different position. Also I should
avoid HARD exercise where my hand needs to be in upright position for long
times. Well I couldn't have done that anyway. 

Watched 'two' movies yesterday as I bought a new DVD player. 149eur from
Prisma, the player included LOTR - Two towers, but it wasnt't the selection
criteria. We had need for CHEAP  reliable player and that was about the
cheapest compared to the features. It plays MP3  records, JPEG pictures, SVCD
and VCD from  all media types. And I just found out that it  is possible to
hack it regionfree by simply using remote control! http://tinyurl.com/pzdw.
The movies we watched were 'Two weeks notice', a quite nice film with Sandra
Bullock and that famous-blowjob dude from britain. Also watched the end of the
oh so fucking good "Manon des Sources" (Jean de Florette 2). The player seems
to read even shitty DVDs nicely as I managed to see my testdvd (U-571)
correctly with it!

I slept excellently last night as I used a special custom pillow under my
head. The  pillow was so high, and annoyingly 'thick' that I could only sleep
either on my back or by my side but not with my hand under the pillow (which
was the main reason for the fucken shoulder  problem. Or the ridiculous
amounts of Karate I have been doing before the belt graduation last weekend).
The special custommade pillow wasn't that special, I made it from blanket and
normal pillow combined together. I noticed that this kind of pillow-replacement
 helped me sleep on my side when I am sleeping outdoors in the tent. For some
reason though I have NO idea what kind of dreams I have. I have quite happy
inner feeling about everything so the dreams must have been excellent. Perhaps
I made my master's thesis last night and read all the books I need to read
before I get my ~10 points of philosophy and ~8 points of psychology. In
total, before I'll be ready MSc in Computer Science, I need my master's
thesis, proof of maturity,  about 18 points of philosophy/psychology and lots
of willpower.

Shit, I am getting SO depressed now. The reason is that I have been reading a
webforum for people to complain/ask advices about problems in their
relationships (sonera ellit - parisuhteet).  Logically, there shouldn't be any
reason to feel like this, as I have been 'regular' on sfnet.keskustelu.ihmissuh
teet for years now. But the contrast of 'Orson the Ordinarywebuser' and the
ones that write to usenet is HUGE.  Goddamn, there was this one girl asking
what should she had done as she was trying to get her husband  warming up for
sex but the husband was first reluctant. After she gave up the man got horny
and they started sex. After a while, this woman started to feel awkward -
"does he do this because of me? Did I force him to have sex?" etc. After this
she decided that she doesn't want any sex afterall and interrupts the sex
intercourse. WHAT A CRAP! And of course, there came dozens of other
whinybitches sharing their OH SO INTERESTING view that it was totally ok. Then
few come and tell how they too have suddenly, in the middle of sex
intercourse,  started to feel 'weird and feeling like they'd like to cry or
have started to cry'. Explanations were something like 'I am really interested
in sex and open to all new things and shit, but then we tried this doggy-style
and I suddenly felt so lonely and vulnerable and I started crying. I had to
stop.'. FOR FUCKS SAKE.  IF THIS KIND OF SHIT IS NORMAL, I AM GOING TO START
SUGGERATING MYSELF GAY. 

Then I am again more pissed about reading blogs. TEEN GIRL blogs. Hell shit
fuck. I recently signed my blog for finnish-blog-top list (A pathetic amount
of three readers, one of them being me :( ) at www.pinseri.com (go there and
subscribe to my blog so I get more scores and I will rule the world!). There
you can subscribe yourself to blogs and it makes a personal list for you. It
shows the recent additions in the end of your subscribed list and  I decided
to read few of them. Holy mother of earth what a major mistake. I ended up
reading a blog written by some 17 year  old (or something like that, anyway
TOO young mentally) high-school girl. It sounded all like "Oh yesterday I saw
this guy,  he was hot... All men suck! They leave me and are not reliable! Oh
I wish I could tell this to "mister X" (obviously some  fucker from their past
that didn't like this biatch).' I mean, what kind of retard you have to be to
whine like that? Is that really what teenie girls do and think? No fucking
wonder they are left and betrayed. If you are interested seeing this blog, the
blog's name was 'Nancy' or somebody like that.